- Published on Tuesday, 25 March 2014 18:49 25 March 2014
- Written by julie julie
I was painfully shy as a child. My shyness and massive insecurity took many years to abate. I think that insecurity explains many of the poor
decisions in my life. I simply didn't believe I was as good as others or as deserving of good things.
Learning in front of others was awful. I was so shy in tennis lessons that I really couldn't focus or give it my best. I hated when I had to speak in class. Conversation and class participation would stop completely - because my answers were so idiotic - (actually, they were all probably in shock that the mute kid spoke up) - it was awful. I made my father find a spot on the lake where I couldn't see a soul before I would attempt to learn to waterski.
I'm still half introvert; half extrovert, but not nearly so awkward in public. With the help of a grade 13 teacher who supported my class participation, I learned to have the courage to speak. I forced myself to ask questions in university classes of 500+ students. I didn't want to be so shy and I knew I was the only one who could make that change.
People who know me today have a tough time seeing me as shy. I love public speaking and will try almost anything so I can say I did it.
Determination and courage. And then a bunch more of both.